You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my
thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar
with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it
completely.
You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your
hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me
to attain.
Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee
from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed
in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the
far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand
will hold me fast.
If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light
become night around me,”
even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will
shine like the day,
for darkness is as
light to you.
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me
together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are
wonderful,
I know that full
well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in
the secret place,
when I was woven
together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days
ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them
came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
How vast is the
sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would
outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am
still with you.
If only you, God, would slay the wicked!
Away from me, you
who are bloodthirsty!
They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries
misuse your name.
Do I not hate those who hate you, Lord,
and abhor those
who are in rebellion against you?
I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my
enemies.
Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know
my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the
way everlasting. Psalm 139
When reading this psalm from the Message Bible, a verse that
really struck me was Psalm 139:6 which is a summary and overwhelming awareness
of what the first 5 verses already discuss of God’s providential and
incarnational presence. Look at the
first 5 verses and then read v. 6:
This is too much, too wonderful – I can’t take it all in!
But more is coming! Like, where can one flee or try to hide
in God’s all-encompassing presence? If
one goes to Hades, or to darkness, or to anywhere, it is still in the purview
of God’s grace and presence. Light and dark are all open to God! One could not
count the ways in which we are near God. For the sands of all the beaches, deserts, and oceans cannot contain
such presence. Again, it is too much and
too wonderful to take it all in.
So, yes, such intimate knowledge of God’s gracious presence
is there from growth in the womb to birth.
Now, feeling overwhelmed has a whole different perspective
of how we deal with stress. Even in the
face of evil and encounters that confront us with evil and threats, yet the
overpowering presence of God out maneuvers and hedges around us to see us
through such moments and stress. Again,
it is too much and too wonderful to take it all in.
Yes, in 51 plus years of ministry and life, I have felt much
stress and some quite overpowering, even when I felt powerless to
continue. Thanks to friends of faith and
an Incarnate Providence of God in Christ I could reach when there was nothing
else to grasp.
I had a poster that hung on my study door with a kitten
hanging by a rope with its paw in the rope! The saying on the poster was: “When
you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on! “
Imagine the relief and letting go expressed in Psalm 139:22
– it is the release of stress that God does guide us through, even if it is too
much and too wonderful to take all in.
“See for Yourself whether I’ve done anything wrong—then
guide me on the road to eternal life.”
Prayer: O Gracious
God, when things get overwhelming, I pray that the encouragement and presence
of your grace will hedge around me that I may fully be in awe of your care,
even if it is too much and too wonderful to take it all in, through Christ I
pray. Amen
Rev. Dr. John J. Duling, Honorably Retired



